Hello! I remember you! Just kidding, I realize that its been a while since I've posted and honestly I don't have a good reason. Oh I could say I was busy with school ending, new nieces being born, trips to Calgary but while those are all true, I just didn't post. You see since the beinging of May I've been embarking on another type of journey for myself. Those who know me well know that I've always struggled with my weight. I've been up and I've been down, 60lbs to be exact, and kept if off for 4 years. After having Owen I lost that bit of willpower that I had to say "no" to cheesecake, bread and bailey's. I told myself that I was eating well why couldn't I loose weight? Eventually I came up with the solution. I had a thyroid problem. So off to the doctor I went, armed with information about why I had a thryoid problem. After all the testing was done and I went back in for my checkup I got told no thyroid problem, infact my levels are so perfect that they wouldn't even retest. The doctor told me it was all in my head, perhaps depression and meds might be in order? As for the weight loss, she said to exercise. After crying in her office and telling her I ran after 4 kids all day long I left feeling defeated, insulted and honestly angry. How dare she not tell me what I wanted to hear? I wanted an answer! Darn it I wanted the meds with the side effect of loosing weight! Depression she guessed, well she was right to a degree. I was depressed that I had allowed myself to get so big (in my eyes) again, so my response was to eat more because it made me feel better, for the moment.
After my pity party I decided that I wanted a clearer picture of my food intake. I journalled everything that went into my mouth for week. When I went back I got hit with the cold hard facts, I was eating too much bad stuff(processed carbs), too often and not enough of the good (veggies/fruit/water). I decided then and there I was smartening up. I re-read the GI Diet book that I had used previously and had a really serious self talk about the simple fact that it won't be quick and fast weight loss, anything that is worth doing takes work. I know that slow and steady weight loss is the safest and the most maintainable, I've done it before I can do it again. So after 6 weeks of proper eating and loosing 17lbs, I began exercising. I really felt like I couldn't start 2 things at once because I really needed to get a handle on my eating. So as of 2 weeks ago I've started the Couch to 5K running program that my sister did a couple of years ago. Armed with good shoes and a smartphone app I was off. I loved it! I feel so incredible when I run, something that I never got when going on the elliptical at home. Maybe its those runner endorphines but I'm totally hooked. I don't go fast but you know what? I'm lapping everyone who is sitting on the couch ;)
So while I haven't been crafty for while, I've been taking care of myself. I feel better, my clothes are fitting so much looser, plus I've been able to buy a new outfit that is almost 2 sizes smaller than what I wore at Christmas! I'm hoping to be at my goal weight by the time my birthday rolls around but if I'm not, I'll just keep going. I've saved some of my old clothes just in case, course buying new wouldn't hurt my feelings.
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